Okay maybe I am being overreacting, but after several years living in Malaysia, I can say for sure, I damn hate Jakarta....
I mean I know it already since the time that I finished my high school... I hate the dirt, I hate the weirdos staring people eyes, I hate the pollution, I hate it when it is rain and the super black water splash on my leg, I hate the fact that the hand soap is very watery, I hate the facts that the girls are beautiful here, I hate the fact that Jakarta has this kind of smell, I hate every single thing I see here..........
I know it already ever since long long long long long long long time ago...But I just cannot admit that this is this bad hate....Why can I just get a job in other country???why the hell?????
When I was in Malaysia, even the worst scamming company want to interview me, I would come.. I was so thirsty for the interview... But now, every company that I have applied, call me, and now I dont feel good about it...I know I am such a bitch, but really.....I dont know..I dont know what I want.. I afraid if I want too much, I just cannot handle the disappointment. That yenny CIMB Niaga head of IT something is right. I cannot overcome my own fear. I always run... why the hell I run????I want to stop running...I want a life..please for god sake....................
Day by day, I hate myself more and more..........I am almost 22, I am supposed to be this bright matured girl.. What the hell am I doing with my life???Now honestly I want to run more..I want to run to China to study again.I hate the fact that I want it..I dont know...I am scared to live here in Jakarta...
